Should I be feeling pressured???

Had an extended family gathering last Saturday. OH held one of my cuzzie's baby and I hold another. Everyone was telling me we should get our own. Hmmm hello.... it's not like we can get it from the vending machine.... What's with everyone? Everyone was behaving like it's my bloody effing fault. Hello... OH owed me ove $1K. He can't even support himself let alone another being. I'm the one who's paying for all the kitties which in fact, OH was the one who wanted a cat in the 1st place.



Deep down, yeah I do want one but God is saying I should not have one. Seemed that I have a grown baby in my own house and another baby in another house. I'm mentally, physically, emotionally, and financially burdened by all these babies that I don't really need another baby in my life. Not now not ever. If it's fated that I'm to have a baby.... I would have already gotten one years and years ago. If OH made noise, I will just shove the IOUs in his bloody effing face.



I've got cuzzies who had babies even before they got married. Well... not exactly had babies... they made babies... my sister has a child which she could not care less. My SIL dun care for her kids' education... Millions and millions of children who are born with complete sets of parents are totally ignored by them. One baby from me cannot make a difference in the world.



Plus I'm already 33. Even if I have one say when I'm 35. I'll be like 55 when he/she finished poly. OMG! I'm not rich like my mum. OH.... well.... he'll be like sponging off me still.



Get me out of this pressure cooker. That's why I HATE family gatherings. For goodness sake, why can't all of you be happy with my lifestyle. Why must all of you make me conform?



AARRRGGGHHHHH!!!!!



BTW, I love my private life with my own 'kids'. They are the best. Mummy love you my babies.... MUAH MUAH MUAH

Worried and frustrated

I'm very worried cos Hyfa's condition is like a roller coaster. She was doing really well the entire of last week and then come Sunday and she was back to her not eating, lethargic self. It's very frustrating as I have to be on my toes most of the time and troubleshoot every single symptom. Worse cos OH is hardly home most of the time. And when he's home, he'll be watching TV or playing games. Argh!

On the flip side, all others seem fine and dandy.

Anyway, watched the olympics and I just love track and field events. Especially the short distance running. Hats off to Jamaica for having the fastest people on Earth. Really superb.

My baby's condition is regressing!!!

I spoke too soon. I should have kept my arrogant mouth shut.

I bought Hyhy a Water Dome cos I really want her to drink. When I peeped in her room, I saw that she was lumped in one corner, food and water bowl untouched. Panic gila sey. I fed the rest and fixed the water dome and she finally drank from it. She ate a bit after that. Just a bit. Not much.

She went limp after that. I'm seriously disheartened. However, I should not give up. I should be strong for everyone person in my house. Cos I know, if I breakdown, everyone else will too. It's tiring being the integral part of the household. Can't take a break... never.

My jOb SuX.... big time

I hate my job. I hate the people who I'm surrounded with. I hate them to the bones. Damn stupid, lazy idiots who can't use their brains for good.

I'm surrounded with people who have to mould the future but are forever living in the past. How can you learn more about the world and impart that knowledge to the young but still refuse to admit that the world is no longer in the ice age? Modern day caveman mentality?

I can't believe I'm in this industry and be surrounded with people who refuse to change. Being efficient in this part of the world means that all the people around you just get slacker and slacker.

It's bloody tiring. Fighting an endless battle with these modern day cavemen. Don't they realise that the world is getting smaller and smaller now with all the infocomm developments? We are not animals.... our young dun turn out to be EXACTLY like us. They have different future. Even the wars now are fought differently. There are no epic battles now. We don't fight with swords man to man. We use automated planes that drop a bomb to kill and entire country.... but do these people know these? They will say, IT'S NOT RELEVANT TO US.

Educators don't find knowing about the world relevant? I don't get it. EVERYTHING is relevant to me. Learning is a life long thing. We should never stop learning till we are declared braindead and nothing else can be absorbed. How on Earth are you going to promote education when you yourself don't believe in it? Dumbass!

Updates in my baby

With a combination of meds, air zam zam, habatussauda and lots and lots of TLC from everyone, Hyfa is getting better and better by the day. I'm a bit happy with her progress but I know we can't stop being vigilant. Every little information or change is vital.

I was so happy that she's sitting and walking more now.

Last night, she was kneading me very strongly. And she groomed herself on my belly. Purring of course.

I don't like it that my other babies are being blamed for her illness. She has always been thin. I have been saying that. She's prone to runny stools. She's more sensitive. I'm not blaming any other cat. I know the virus can mutate and her immunity is not strong. If I had known about Lysine earlier, I would have given it to them. I'm thinking of buying a water dome for Hyhy so that she can also drink from it inside the room. I elevated her food using OH's old lunchbox as a boost. But I think I'll use the mini shelf I bought from Japan House. But I need some non-slip base.

Ok gotta work.

Peace!

Saw some cutie cat stuff on the net on cats

The black cat looks a bit like Oreo. Esp the last one.

This reminded me of the cute kitten who broke her hind leg at the hospital.

This one looks like Torres and Zidane. But now Torres is just as big as Zidane.

Hyfa's update + Mom's bday

Sunday.... Since I asked mom for $500 for Hyfa's meds, she made me promise to have lunch with her at Hjh Maimunah's. I mean who would say no to that. OH asked if his mom can come along. I mean WTF? It's my mom's bday for God's sake. According to him, his mom has been asking for it. Well.... his mom has been asking to take her out to ALL the bloody eating places at arab st. So each time I go there I have to bring her? My mom hardly eat out. His mom... goes out every single effing week. Crying croc damsel in distress? Bad enuf I have to maintain and pay for her bloody son, my family have to pay for you too? WTH.

Anyway, food was great. Had siput sedut, Syasya's fave. Ikan bakar with cili padi kicap. Yummy. Sotong sambal dunno wad. Vege of course. Some ultra uber delicious shrimp crisps. And the star of it all..... the sambal belacan.... super duper yum yum!!! I have chicken everyday so food like that is.... heaven....

Went to Joo Chiat Complex to search for Habatussauda in soft gel form for Hyhy. It's $50 but grandma paid for her beloved cucu. She bought for her human cucu habatussauda in gummi jelly form. I will eat it too... cos they dun smell of that nigella sativa. It smelt like the normal gummi bears.

Anyway, went back to tampines and I went to TM wif Kakak n Syasya. Saw this beautiful shop selling beautiful bags from Japan. They also have some girly umbrellas too. Very Jappy. I like. But it's a little ex lah. The bags are from $22. The nice ones go as high as $56. I don't dare to look at those big ones.

OH did not go to his mom's. Dunno y. Maybe he's juz being lazy. At ard 6... Steamboat called and said she wanted to send food over. I know it's her cos I saw her name on the caller ID. Wah! Rajinnyer. Fuel prices does not hinder when someone want to menggatal. OH went down after maghrib to fetch the food. WTH. When he went up our conversation goes like this but in Malay:

Me: Why did you go downstairs?
OH: To take that
Me: Take what?
OH: Food
Me: From who?
OH: ******* (that bloody woman's name lah)

Dun understand why he needs to like hide information from me. Hello.... the more you hide... the more I'll find out.

Anyway, I dun really care cos if he want to main gila.... go ahead....

Peace!